Here, take my advice — I’m not using it
That’s right, I ignore all the advice I give to my friends about putting themselves out there. I don’t just mean in the flirtatious and fun way, I mean in the friendship kind of way. I have only a few friends and I can’t seem to make more; mostly because I’m too busy ignoring the fact that other people exist in the first place.
I found it much easier to sit in a crowded room silently and not make any acquaintances much easier than it might look. You would think that I’m deliberately putting myself in the path of others and that there would be some sort of positive or negative confrontation eventually. WRONG. I’ve been doing it for weeks and now they’re so accustomed to my presence it feels like I’ve become a part of the booths in the corner. I’m a part of the furniture now, and it doesn’t feel right if I’m not there.
That all changed; when I walked in she hollered at me across the room in the most chipper and excited voice. While I thought I was slipping into the background, she actually remembered my face. She noticed when I didn’t come in that morning and I felt missed. She even remember my coffee order.
It saddens me to say that I’m so introverted and socially awkward that I still don’t know her name. I have to admit she had such kind eyes and a bright smile that it filled my day with the kind of warmth you only feel in your soul.
In short, I feel more welcome when I go to my usual spot and try to attach myself to the back of my chair. I think I’ve finally made a friend. Although I don’t know her name, I will be looking forward to her smile every time I visit and maybe one day I’ll work up the nerve to introduce myself instead of being so awkward.